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  The book had only been out a few days. It was a little too early to panic about numbers.

  Anthony peered closely at her expression, crossing almost cautiously into her front hall and pushing the door closed behind him with a solid click. “Nothing’s wrong with Bayou. Sales are going great.”

  “Good to hear.”

  His gaze strayed, and she followed it to the dining table.

  “I was just addressing some invitations,” she explained.

  “I didn’t mean to disturb you,” he said.

  She shook her head. “No problem. Can I get you—”

  The phone rang yet again.

  Anthony reflexively jerked toward it. “Don’t answer that.”

  “I wasn’t going to.”

  The greeting began.

  Anthony crossed the room, then reached down and pulled the answering machine plug.

  It took Joan a second to react. “What are you doing?”

  “We have to talk.”

  She blinked. “About what?” Her theory that this was all a bizarre dream was quickly gaining credibility. She held still for a minute, waiting to wake up and start Tuesday all over again.

  “Something’s happened,” said Anthony.

  Joan closed her eyes and gave her head a little shake.

  “Joan?”

  She opened one eye. “You’re still here.”

  He frowned.

  She glanced down at her white, pleated blouse and linen slacks. “And I’m still here.”

  He took a step toward her, one hand tentatively reaching out. “Joan?”

  She inhaled his spicy aftershave, wishing this really were a dream. What a perfect time to lean up and kiss him. She’d wondered about those full lips for years.

  “We have to talk,” he repeated.

  “Okay.” She nodded, shelving the dream theory for now. Surely if this was a dream, her subconscious would be making it a little sexier.

  He looked way too serious. “Can we sit down?”

  Maybe Bayou wasn’t doing so well. Maybe he was going to drop her as a client. She’d heard the publishing business was downsizing, and authors were being let go all over the place.

  “Just go ahead and tell me,” she said, steeling herself.

  He drew a deep breath and rubbed his chin. “It’s like this…”

  Joan waited, quickly growing impatient. “If it’s bad news, it’s bad news.”

  Whatever it was, she’d retain her composure. She’d draw on years of poise and practice learned at her mother’s knee and keep her feelings bottled tight inside.

  “There was a leak,” he said.

  She mentally shifted gears and glanced up at the ceiling. “Here?”

  His shoulders dropped, and he shook his head. “Not that kind of leak.”

  “Oh.”

  “An information leak.”

  His point wasn’t quite computing. “Information?”

  He stepped closer. “Information about you.” He paused. “Personally.”

  And then she got it.

  It was like being struck with a lightning bolt. “No,” she rasped, shaking her head in denial as the breath hissed out of her body.

  Heather’s words screamed through her brain. “What were you thinking?”

  At this moment, Joan didn’t honestly know what she’d been thinking. She’d put her faith in Anthony. She’d trusted him when he said he’d take care of her.

  Now, she stared up at him, feeling as though she were seeing him for the very first time, wondering how he could have turned on her. “How could you—”

  “Not me.” A look of horror came over his face.

  “Who else?” It couldn’t have been anyone else.

  He didn’t answer.

  “Who else knew?”

  “There was a confidential file.”

  “You wrote it down?”

  Blind trusts and numbered companies from here to Switzerland, and he wrote it down?

  His eyes turned bleak, and he raked a hand through his hair. “Joan, I am so…”

  She wanted to rant. She wanted to rave.

  But she knew that wouldn’t change a thing. All she could control now was how she reacted.

  She called on every ounce of composure she could muster and compressed her lips. She had to think. There had to be something they could do, some way to salvage the situation.

  “Who else knows?” she asked hoarsely. There was her sister, obviously. There was Anthony. There was the person with the confidential file and two lawyers in Atlanta.

  Anthony glanced down at his feet and shifted.

  “Who knows?” she repeated. She’d figure out exactly what they were dealing with, and they’d take steps to control the problem.

  He glanced back up. And then he sighed. “The greater readership of The New York Times.”

  She staggered back. “It’s…”

  “In the paper. Yesterday.”

  Oh, no. No, no.

  “And CNN picked it up this morning.”

  The room spun around her. “I think I’m going to throw up.”

  Anthony stepped forward, his hands closing around her shoulders. “Take a deep breath.”

  “That won’t help.” They’d still know. They’d all still know.

  And it was her own fault. She’d grown complacent. After ten years, she thought she was home free. She thought the secret would stay locked forever behind the corporate screen Anthony had built.

  So with Bayou Betrayal, she’d let loose. She cringed. “It has a bondage scene.”

  “Yeah, but that’s the antagonist.”

  “My mother’s going to read it. My grandmother’s going to read it.”

  “It’s fiction.”

  She started hyperventilating. “They’ll think—”

  “They’ll think you’re a creative and talented author.”

  “They’ll think I’m a hack with loose morals.”

  “Who cares?”

  “They’re my family.”

  “Then they should be proud of you.”

  Joan sagged. “It doesn’t work that way.”

  “It’s going to be fine.”

  “Not it’s not.” It might never be fine again.

  “Joan.” His voice sounded far away. “I know we can make this work.”

  After a second, his words registered.

  Make it work?

  Of course he’d make it work. Despite his show of sympathy, he had to be elated by the turn of events. He’d been after her for years to do some publicity.

  “You sure it wasn’t you?” she asked.

  He looked offended. “Joan!”

  “It occurs to me that you have to be pretty happy about this.”

  “I’m not the least bit happy about this.”

  Did she believe him? Was she a fool to believe him? In the end, it didn’t really matter. It was a done deal. Her family would shun her, and Anthony would head back to New York. And she’d be left here on her own.

  All the more reason Indigo had to stay the same. She took another breath. She knew now how to mitigate the problem.

  Crossing to the table, she sat down and picked up the calligraphy pen.

  “Joan?” Anthony ventured from behind her.

  “I’m a little busy right now.” She drew a curved capital P with a flourish. “But thanks so much for stopping by.”

  He went silent.

  She focused and finished the word please. “About the new manuscript,” she said, dipping her pen. “I know it’s a lot to ask, but could I have another couple of weeks to figure out the timing?”

  Between books, she always did some spring cleaning, painted the shutters, wallpapered the den. There was something emotionally therapeutic about getting the clutter out of her life before she started a new project.

  She was feeling extremely cluttered right now.

  “Joan.” Anthony shifted closer, his suit jacket swishing and his scent invading her space.

  Her stomach t
ightened, but she ignored it. “I think it might be the music festival.”

  “The music festival?”

  She nodded, still carefully forming letters. “It’s taking up my mental space, and I really can’t come up with a new story with all that going on.”

  The phone rang again, jangling through the cottage, making Joan’s hand twitch a black streak over the page.

  Anthony strode across the room and yanked the plug out of the wall. “I’m here to help.”

  “You know calligraphy?”

  “You can’t pretend this isn’t happening.”

  “What isn’t happening?”

  “Your identity is out.”

  “Thank you so much for clarifying the situation. I really hadn’t understood that from our conversation.” She switched to a regular pen for the details.

  He moved around the table, pulled out a chair and sat down. “We have to talk strategy. We have to make plans.”

  “I have a strategy.”

  “You do?”

  “I’m addressing invitations.”

  His expression perked up. “A book launch?”

  “A tea.”

  He paused. “Why?”

  Joan moved a card aside to dry. “There are people here in Indigo who want to increase tourism.”

  Anthony didn’t answer, but she could feel his tense questions.

  “I think that’s a bad idea,” she continued. “And I’ll tell you why. The beauty of living here is the peace and quiet, the sense of community, the slow pace of life and the opportunity for individualism. You bring in a bunch of gawking tourists, and that’s all going to change in a heartbeat.”

  “So you’re having a tea.”

  “Exactly.”

  “I’m not following your logic.”

  “That’s because I’m an artist and you’re a lawyer.”

  “I see.”

  He didn’t see. He was being patronizing. The rat.

  “I give a tea,” she said, getting haughty right back at him. “I influence some pivotal people, turn the tide on this music festival, the opera house, the whole tourism thing, and Indigo stays exactly the same as it always was, protecting my lifestyle.”

  Her family would come around someday.

  Maybe.

  Then again, maybe not.

  Anthony’s voice turned patient. “And you don’t think your fans coming to Indigo might have an impact on your lifestyle?”

  “Why would my readers come to Indigo?”

  Anthony was silent until she looked up.

  “To see you, Joan.” He looked completely serious.

  But that was ridiculous. She wasn’t a movie star. Nobody was coming to Indigo to see her.

  Her problem was her parents and the bondage scene. Her pen slipped again. And these stupid invitations she kept ruining.

  CHAPTER TWO

  THERE WAS NO WAY in hell Anthony was letting Joan run around town to deliver tea invitations. She had to stay inside the house until they gauged the press’s reaction to her identity. Not that he wouldn’t make use of reporters. He just wanted to control the time and place.

  “I’ll deliver them for you,” he said, reaching for the neat stack of envelopes in her hand. “Just give me the addresses.” He wasn’t wild about leaving her here alone, but it was the lesser of two evils.

  She snapped them out of his reach and gestured to her front window. “Do you see a crowd forming out there? Do you?”

  “That doesn’t mean they’re not in town.”

  Joan shook her head. “I’m going upstairs to change now. Then I’m delivering my invitations personally.”

  “Denial’s not going to help,” he told her.

  “Neither is panic.”

  “I’m not panicking.” He was taking logical, reasonable steps to ensure her safety and to keep control of the story. The last thing in the world he needed was for her to be accosted by an aggressive reporter or a local resident looking to make a few thousand dollars from the National Inquisitor.

  “Getting changed now,” she taunted over her shoulder as she headed for the staircase to the second floor.

  “Barring the door now,” he called back.

  “You can’t keep me prisoner.” Her springy footsteps sounded on the hardwood steps.

  “Watch me try.”

  He was glad she wasn’t intimidated by the press. It showed self-confidence and spirit. Maybe she’d even agree to an interview.

  He liked that idea. If they picked the right host and the right network, they could get out in front of this. Well-executed publicity would have a huge impact on sales. Pellegrin was already planning a second print run. There was a chance they could parlay it into a third and a fourth.

  He pulled out his BlackBerry and did a quick check of the online bookstores. While he scrolled through some fine-looking numbers, there was a rap on the door.

  Glancing at the staircase to make sure there was no sign of Joan, he tucked the BlackBerry into his pocket and headed for the small foyer.

  He opened the door to a haughty blond woman wearing a pressed, pink linen suit, dangling earrings and an impressive diamond necklace against a perfect tan.

  “Can I help you?” he asked, taking in her expensively streaked hair and precise makeup.

  “Who are you?” she asked, tipping her chin and perusing him with blue eyes that catalogued, assessed, then dismissed.

  “None of your business,” he told her.

  “Where’s Joan?”

  “Also none of your business.”

  She definitely wasn’t a reporter, and he’d bet she wasn’t local. A fan? Interesting demographic.

  “Do I have to call the police?” she asked.

  That surprised him. “Be my guest.”

  She didn’t reach for a cell phone, so he was pretty sure it was a bluff.

  “Joan?” she called into the cottage.

  Anthony tried to push the door shut, but the woman thrust her hip inside, and he didn’t have it in him to hurt her. He blocked the path with his body instead.

  “Joan?” the woman called again. “You all right?”

  Joan’s quick footsteps sounded on the stairs. “Heather?”

  “It’s me,” the woman called, shifting forward. “Who is this imbecile?”

  “Anthony?” Joan rushed toward them. “What are you doing?”

  “You know her?” he asked Joan.

  “Of course I know her. She’s my sister.”

  Anthony pulled back. “Your sister?”

  The woman glared at him as if he was a blob of sidewalk gum. “Yes. I’m her sister.”

  Perfect. He supposed when a day took a downhill slide, it just kept right on going.

  Heather brushed the front of her suit and straightened her sleeves, as if he’d somehow tainted her.

  “This is Anthony Verdun,” said Joan.

  “You have a boyfriend?” Heather gave him another once-over, apparently coming to much the same conclusion as last time about his worth as a human being.

  “He’s my agent,” said Joan.

  “Like a lawyer?”

  Anthony closed the door behind Heather, checking through the window to make sure nobody else was lurking in the hydrangeas.

  “He is a lawyer. But he’s a literary agent. He sells my books.”

  Heather looked him up and down. “So he’s the one.”

  “Heather.”

  “I knew it’d be someone shady.”

  Anthony scoffed.

  The woman kept her attention on Joan and waved her hand in the air. “How did he co-opt you into this nonsense?”

  Joan’s lips quirked into a half smile. “It’s like a cult. He fed me bonbons and made me chant.”

  Anthony gave Joan points for her spunk, but Heather was starting to annoy him. “Did you forget the part where you say, ‘Congratulations, Joan’?”

  Heather arched a sculpted brow. “Congratulations? Puh-leeze.”

  “Your sister’s about to hit a bests
eller list.”

  “For pulp fiction.”

  Joan flinched, and Anthony clenched his jaw. He didn’t care who Heather was, he wasn’t about to stand here and let her insult his client. If she were a man, he’d have her up against the wall for that.

  Instead, he jerked open the door. “I think you should leave now.”

  Heather’s jaw worked in silence for a moment.

  “I mean it,” said Anthony.

  “Why, you bloodsucking little upstart.”

  “Stop,” begged Joan, putting her fingertips against her temples. “I don’t have time for this.”

  “I should think not,” Heather huffed.

  “I have tea invitations,” said Joan.

  “You are not leaving this house,” said Anthony, snapping the door closed again.

  Heather turned her attention back to Joan. “Just who the hell does he think he is?”

  “My jailer, apparently,” said Joan.

  “I’m the guy who’s turning this thing around.”

  Heather didn’t even glance his way. “You want me to call the police? I could get Daddy—”

  “Nobody’s calling the police,” said Joan. “Anthony’s okay.”

  Okay? Well, wasn’t that just…adequate.

  He took a deep breath and warned himself not to let his emotions get mixed up in business. Joan’s career was his priority, not his bruised ego. That meant he had to get this discussion back on an even keel.

  “We need to sit down,” he said to her. “And we need to talk about managing this issue.”

  “We need to talk about escaping to Europe,” said Heather. “Mom and Daddy are—”

  “Mom and Dad know?”

  “They are literate,” said Heather. “And even if they weren’t, several of their friends have called.”

  Joan groaned and clutched at her stomach.

  “You’re not helping,” Anthony said to Heather, moving toward Joan.

  “I’m not helping? You’re the one who got her into this in the first place.”

  “Yeah? Well maybe if she had a family who gave a damn about her feelings, she wouldn’t have had to hide her career for ten years.”

  Heather let out a little squeak. “How dare you suggest we don’t care about Joan.”

  “How dare you suggest I have motives other than her best interests.”

  “So you’ve represented her for free?”